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Originally uploaded by PhotoErin.

Eugene Celebration was fairly weak this year. The best part about it was the firedancers, and they were outside the gates. I could have seen this and not paid the steep entrance fees.

I leave for vacation in two days and I have lots to do.

Grass

Our neighbor's son-in-law just died in a freak accident and left his two small children and wife behind. His wife is here at her parents' house and she just looks like shit. She was sitting out in the front yard in the grass very early this morning. When the garbage trucks came by making all sorts of racket, she just sat there, catatonic. I wish I had some sort of words to help her, but I don't and I just sat on my front porch drinking my orange juice and watched her out of the corner of my eye. She was still sitting there in the wet grass when I was done. I just got up and went upstairs and got back into bed. When I left for my doctor's appointment at 9am, she wasn't there, but I could still see the indentation in the grass from where she was sitting. I wonder how long she was there. I wonder if her mother had to come out and coax her into the house. I wonder if her children saw her like that.

I know I'd hurt like that if I lost Greg.

Where does Senator Bayh (D-Indiana) stand?!!

This was a letter I wrote to Mr. Bayh when I tried to learn more about where he stands on important issues for the 2008 Presidential Election. He is a Democratic hopeful at this point.

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What is your stance on environmental protection and defense of marriage acts? I have been researching various democratic presidential hopefuls for 2008 and where they stand on a few issues. I have to say that I am not impressed with the answers you have in your issues section. Two of the MAJOR issues that I will take into account when the primary rolls around are environmental protection and repealing the defense of marriage act. I suggest taking a look at Senator Feingold's website and seeing the many many areas covered in his issues section. I would like to know more about where you stand because I think that you are more electable than most other hopefuls right now. For example; you are white, you don't have a Jewish last name (although Bayh is a tad ambiguous as far as origin goes, you may need to clear that up in early campaigning), you are male, and you have a more attractive face than the man in office right now. For those entirely superficial reasons, I believe that you have a shot, but you need to get rid of alot of the military images on your site. The kind of people that you need to court are the kind of people that just voted against Lieberman in the Connecticut primary. I am one of those kind of people. I want to hear someone rant about Bush's Iraq policy. I want to hear someone say that it would be great for gays to marry. I want to hear more about a socialization of healthcare in this country. I want to hear about cutting defense spending and increasing education spending for the first time in 6 years. I want to hear about strigent clean-air standards and the enforcing of the zero-emission vehicle standards once set in place by the California Air Resources Board nationwide. These are the issues that we really care about. This is what I want the person I vote for to care about, no matter how unpopular it may make him in some circles. If you can show me how you stand, you'll get my vote and my maximum campaign contribution.

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Please visit his website and encourage him to not just be a Democrat, but to be a liberal!
http://bayh.senate.gov/index1.html

FYI: I added the bit about the Jewish name, not because I am an anti-Semite. I am Jewish myself. I just know that anyone with a Jewish last name stands about as much chance of getting elected in this day and age as a openly gay person. That statement goes purely to electablity, not worthiness. I know that we are fickle people and I am not going to pretend that we are not. That is just how it works in this country. I love the idea of Barack Obama as president and Hillary Clinton as V.P., but they might as well be openly gay and Jewish. The United States as a whole does not respect minorities, and will never elect one to the most important office in the land. That makes me sad.

Margaret Cho is amazing!

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Originally uploaded by PhotoErin.

If I have a little girl, I hope she is half as cool as Ms. Cho. I like that I am not the only minority woman in America that likes to use ALL the words in our modern vernacular. And by 'ALL', I mean all the bad words...

"Bush isn't like Hitler, but he could be if he applied himself!"
~Margaret Cho in "Assassin"

My best friend is moving away tomorrow.

Wedding Rehearsal 11/06
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I am up at this hour making cds for her so that she won't be bored on her cross-country drive.

This is going to be a lonely autumn.

Just one of my maternity clothing choices!

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I think I might have to knit myself a shmatta and become an agoraphobe before I let myself wear plus-size maternity clothes like this!

And just when I thought all my morning sickness was gone, I saw this and threw up. Not literally, mind you. I figuratively threw up all over the terrible website I found this peach muslin circus tent.

Ten whole years.

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Yesterday was ten years since my grandfather's death. I didn't expect it to hit me so hard, but it has. Why does he have to be gone when there are so many assholes still in this world? I don't think that it helps that I am pregnant. I really want my kid to know how amazing his great-grandpa was, but I don't know if I will do my Do-Do justice.

Does this terrible feeling of missing someone ever go away?